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this is what i feel :VENTING, HUSH:

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Just toss me aside...what the hell am i worth anyway?
Why do i exist if i just take up space?..
.....You could have just left me to die, you could have left me, you could have denied me...
Why didn't you?
I don't serve a purpose for this world.
and as i say this, my existence seemingly seems to fade more and more...
i used to count the months i've spent suffering silently after each death that was cause by my recklessness...
I used to cut my arms, counting the death's of each soul.

they used to call me a murderer, a monster, an abomination even.
And now all of the sudden im accepted? after everything i've done?
i still cant control my actions half the time, i've even killed my own son more then once.
and they always forgive me.

does this so called...God, forgive me? is there even a room in this so called heaven for me?

the answer would be no, never.

I'm just a worthless creature, not even worth your god damn time.
just turn around and walk away. i dont Deserve you. i never fucking will.

and yet. you still love me dont you......

...my heart aches for your presence, yet i know im not worthy of your time, every minute you spend with me, kills me inside.
....i love you so much....but i dont deserve you.

...i need to be alone for awhile....
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