are you afraid....

"are you so afraid of me that you hide? or is the reason you hide is because your afraid of who you really are inside.....and this isnt just for him....its for you too girl..."

i stared into his dark eyes...it had been a long time since i've seen those eyes....this....monster of former friend...it brings so many good memories...but also tragic and horrifying ones as well......i miss this dear friend.... but i knew it was too late to save him....the evil around him corrupted his very mind....and...he was gone, never to be seen again, the only thing that was left is his shell, filled with nothing but evil, it was like a talking corpse......oh....the laughs we used to share...the hugs, the adventures....the moments..i felt so close to him....all gone....my best friend....after being seperated from him for so long....hehas droven back to his evil ways....his new mind and soul vanished from existence.....i...truely belived he had changed, but i was wrong.....that day we had met.......i felt that something in him changed, he was....becomeing anew....but now......why?....just...why?...Nazo..w-why did you betray me? you were my best friend....you said you loved me.....i felt the same but then....you dissapeared.....and when you came back i was overjoyed.....weeks and weeks past, i started to feel you drift away...back into the corruption ............in my heart...i knew this would happen....since all of my friends....lovers..always fall into corruption within their hearts.......which makes me worry for soto...since he's so close to me...but...even worse.....what will become of Jonathan? the man i had trusted my life and very soul (and heart of course)to....will he fall into corruption like everyone else?........please....dont leave me.......please..........



...also...what Nazo had said....its not only soto who has a monster within them.....i had kept it away so long....since my younger years to be the truth....i never get mad of angry...and if i do....i burst to flames, if i burn farther into anger im afraid "it" might take over.....so....i force myself to faint, or collapse...but...where does all that extra anger i keep inside go to?....it moves itself to soto....if it weret for my anger...maybe he wouldnt have so many problems......i express my anger through him...useing him as a vent...but after that...i feel so guilty...he blames himself..when he should really blame me......im the true cause of his...other self comeing out every so often...his anger is my anger.........it was never his to begin with........Soto....im so sorry......forgive me......please....forgive me....